i think i’m… done with tumblr?
i rarely have time or energy to come on here anymore and i’m so out of touch with anything or anyone who is on here now
i’m contemplating either deleting this blog and starting a new one (i like the fact that i can vent and shit on here, but i’d like to start it all afresh probably) or just leaving it as it is and starting a new one.
when you call in to work and your coworker answers the phone in their peppy work voice then realizes its you and goes back to sounding just as dead inside as you are
i was off work, or finished work early, last month so many times because of the shit going on in my head that i have virtually no money
i’ve applied and been accepted for a credit card. this is the last thing in the world that i ever wanted to do but i’m only going to use it for essentials for the next 2/3 months and then cut it up. i’m going to ask for more hours at work, i’m going to spend as little money as possible, and i’m going to regain some form of control over my life because right now i have nothing.
there have been times before when i’ve thought “shit, i’ve definitely hit the bottom this time.” but no, i was wrong. this is the bottom.
Kind of loving my eye makeup today. Nom. #selfienation #septum #hashtagsareforbellends
the choices that a few months ago would have been had choices are now turning out to be good choices and i am more than ok with that
probably they make me somewhat of a cunt, but right now i don’t give a shit.